REBIRTH 🦋Do you feel dead inside? Lifeless, purpose-lacking, dejected or depressed? . There's a lighthouse in the fog of despair. A dream is the burning lantern. Determination is the lighthouse keeper. . How would it feel to wake each morning, blessed, invigorated and inspired to live? What would it feel like to be stimulated and purposeful? What would that be worth to you? . When I stood before a mirror 2 years ago and declared, 'You can do this,' I had no idea what I referred to or how I'd do it. But I was done with crying myself to sleep at night, breathing into a bag to stop panic attacks and feeling defeated by life's circumstances. . My business was failing, my health deteriorating and my relationship falling apart. Sadly, even after this declaration of hope I lost the business, my relationship and my health. I had one North Star: faith. I promised myself, You will never have another mental breakdown. . I scoured till I found a business I could do part-time where I didn't have to invest hundreds-of-thousands to start, and I could help others. . I read books, attended conferences, listened to podcasts and did a helluva load of soul-searching and honest self-reflection. . I made lists of what gave me joy and what drained my happiness, then set the mother of all intentions. Do more of what brings you joy and less of what drains or defeats you. Bingo! . I didn't sprint to I-feel-ten-feet-tall all. First, I dragged myself into good health, crawled into a business launch, fumbled my way into a book contract, then toddled into a speaking career. . I learned to catch the you-are-not-good-enough voices in my head and starve them of attention. I watered the blooming inner child who loved animals, people, art, music and nature. I learned to let myself giggle, cry, jump for joy, scowl, laugh or dance if I felt the urge. . My negative life metamorphosised into a positive, prosperous one through the slow, deliberate process of birthing from the cocoon of self-doubt I'd made my home. . Today I have a career in healing, writing and speaking. I can't wait to do my yoga teacher training, see my parents building their new home and spend more time travelling in nature.
by liliatarawa on Instagram